Friday, February 19, 2010

In Him we trust

Well, I am writing this blog from a place we had not hoped to be in so soon again. We are in Cairns again, and this time not for a holiday. Let me explain. A few weeks back we were overjoyed to find out that I was pregnant again, and so soon after our last miscarriage. However, once again the Lord decided His plans were different from ours. About a week ago I experienced some complications with my pregnancy and last Wednesday a second scan confirmed that our baby had died and that a D&C would be needed again. Unfortunately, living in a country like PNG, this is no simple thing, so yesterday morning Andrew and Ashlyn and I took the first flight out of PNG and by lunch time were in the wonderful hospital care in Cairns, Australia. I spent the afternoon being truly and thoroughly examined (which was very reassuring), and this morning returned to the hospital where they performed a D&C. I am now doing quite well and recovering. We hope to spend a few more days here (to allow time to heal, and to ensure there are no immediate complications from the surgery), before heading back to Lae next Wednesday, if all goes well.

It was hard to leave Kirilee and Shiana behind, even though they are in the excellent care of Ian and Nadia. Also hard to leave especially under less-than-pleasant circumstances. But we know the Lord cares for us wherever we are. Once again we have been reminded of His overarching power, control and providence. So often we want to control our own lives, but once again He reminds us that that is not our place. He is in control, He knows what He is doing (even when we can't fathom His ways), and in Him we trust.

17 comments:

kris said...

Hi Natalie,
I'm so sorry to hear you had another miscarriage. May the Lord comfort you all, and give you strength.
Regards, Kristy Gunnink

Anonymous said...

Hi Nat,
So sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I hope you get all your strength back soon so that you can return to your girls. May God be with you in the coming weeks,
love, Tash Olde

HH said...

Oh Nat & Andrew, so sorry you have to go through another miscarriage, and one so soon since the last. Indeed our God has His plans for us and we don't always understand His big plan but know he holds you in His hands as you come to terms with another loss. We pray you will get the strength you need to heal.

Ryan and Erica Swarts said...

Dear Nat and Andrew - such sad news - you will be in our prayers tonight - we pray that God will continue to be with you both during this sad time. We also pray you will get your strength back and be able to return to be with your family soon. Love, Erica xx

Anonymous said...

Hi Nat and Andrew,
Really sorry to hear about your miscarriage...Wishing you both strength while coming to terms with your loss while remembering that GOD uses all things for His glory even though its hard to see at the time...
You are in our thoughts and prayers
Lots of Love Steve, Tracy, Shana and Kade oxox

Anonymous said...

Hugs to you Nat, Thinking of you during this sad time. Pray you will have understanding of God's plan and strength to head home soon!
Lvoe Natalie ann

Stephen said...

God be with you all and strengthen you. Give our love and regards to all in Lae, especially Joe & Jerry and families. Stephen, Dorinda & kids.

Anonymous said...

Andrew, Natalie & family - we are very sorry to hear that you have had another miscarriage. We all know that God is in control and He has a plan but it doesn't make it easier to digest. May God grant you the comfort that you need to deal with the emotions that come with it all. May you regain your strength again soon so that you can return to your girls and home. Take care!
xx Matt, Sandra & family

Mrs. Bob said...

(((hugs)))
may God comfort you yet again through your time of grief. praying for strength for you!

carla said...

Hi Natalie and Andrew, How we wish the outcome could have been different for you. We're sorry and thinking about/praying for you. Saying goodbye again to this little unborn must have been painful, may God give you His comfort, love, Carla & Tom

Anonymous said...

Hi Andrew and Nat,
our prayers and thoughts are with you as you go through this disappointment once again. May our God grant you His comfort, that all our children belong to Him, no matter how small they are. Walk each step with our Father, and He will also renew your strength so that you can go on again.
love from John and Ingrid

Henk van der Laan said...

We hebben met droefheid kennis genomen van alweer een miskraam (miscarriage).
Moge de Here bij jullie zijn in deze moeilijke tijd.
We zijn bij jullie in onze gedachten en gebeden.

Loven and regards Henk and Joke.

Carolyn and Alan Rule said...

Dear Natalie and Andrew
We are sorry to hear such sad news, another miscarriage. Hold tight to the joy and knowledge that this little child is now enjoying eternal life, without our earthly sorrow and hardships. My thoughts and prayers are with you both and your family, may He grant you the strength and comfort to work with your emotions and those of your children.

Anonymous said...

HI Andrew and Natalie
We were so sorry to hear of your miscarriage, so very soon after the last one. May our God give you much peace and strength to accept this from HIs hand. You and your girls are in our prayers.
Glad to hear that you received such good care in Cairns. God bless.
Love ARjan and Jodie

jen said...

Natalie and Andrew we are sorry to hear of your dissappointment of another misscariage and commend you at this time again to be comforted that God hears many prayers of your grief and He will take you in His arms of care:) Hope that all goes well and you can enjoy a short time in Cairns and come home safely to your loved ones soon. We are sure Nadia and Ian will love having your kids in their care:) Specail to have special friends in the faith:)

willowsprite said...

So sorry for your loss, Andrew and Natalie. Praying that the Lord will surround you with his comfort during this difficult time.
Sherri Harsevoort

Anonymous said...

Sorry to here about your loss. May God give you comfort and strength as you move forward and I am sure your girls are in good hands with Ian and Nadia. Take care, Shaun and Karen DeJonge and family