…how awesome He is. If there is one thing that has been brought home to us over and over again during the last week is that God has got everything in His control. Let me explain.
A week ago today I visited a doctor in Lae and had a scan done. Sadly the scan confirmed what we expected, that our baby had died and also that it was necessary for me to undergo a D&C immediately. Given the condition of the medical system in PNG it is not advisable (if given a choice) to undergo any surgical procedure here. Andrew and I arrived home from the hospital and after frantic organization, within a bit over an hour we had my tickets booked to Australia, and Ashlyn and I were on our way to the airport (with Andrew dropping us off).
When I think back to that day….wow, what a stressful, terrible day. It was crazy. And yet, through all the emotions, through all the craziness, through all the worry, we felt the ever-present hand of our Heavenly Father. Soon Ashlyn and I were on the plane (Andrew even managed to get us on to an earlier plane at the Lae airport) and we were on our way. As we took off Ashlyn burst into tears – she finally realized that we were leaving Daddy and Kirilee and Shiana behind, and of course she sensed our anxiety and stress. As the flight continued on she calmed down and after a 2 hour wait in Moresby we flew on to Cairns where we were greeted at the airport by Matt and Claire Byl and children (yes, in all the craziness, I had managed to get hold of my sister, who got hold of their phone number, and I called Claire to tell her what was going on).
I wanted to go straight into emergency the next morning (Wednesday), but Andrew’s Mum was flying in on Wednesday afternoon (to be there with me and Ashlyn). Thankfully Claire offered to take me in. She was so wonderful and kind. They did so much for us! She first took me in and then took Ashlyn and her children to a nearby playground (“Muddy’s”) while I waited to be seen. The wait was not long and what a sense of peace overcame me as I was put under the wonderful medical care in Australia. What a blessing to have such good care. Immediately I was given a host of tests and the like. They were so thorough; they were so caring and kind – nurses, doctors and specialists alike! And while I was there I began bleeding heavily (the fear of this happening was the reason I left PNG in a hurry). As the day wore on and I was admitted into surgery for a D&C, I continued to feel such peace and thankfulness. Claire was there looking after Ashlyn, and she went to pick up Andrew’s Mum from the airport in the afternoon and took her and Ashlyn back to our unit at Treetops Lodge. Initially it appeared as if I would have to overnight in hospital because I could not get into theatre till later on, but suddenly a spot opened up and I was hurriedly made ready for theatre. God blessed the doctors, and soon I was recovering. My blood pressure was a bit too low, but after an extra bag of fluids I was doing much better.
As I laid there in the hospital, I had such a wonderful time to reflect on the Lord’s goodness. I felt such relief that all had gone so well. After the mad, stressful and emotional day before, it was so good to have time to be still and reflect. God is good! I couldn’t help but be overwhelmed by how clearly His guiding Hand was made evident to us! He had everything so perfectly timed, He controlled everything so amazingly, He got me where I needed to be at the right time. Amazing! And as I reflected on this I could not help but feel peace with everything that had happened over the past couple of weeks. It made me realize that if God could orchestrate all events so amazingly well that everything just fell into place, then surely He knew what He was doing in taking our baby to Himself in Heaven. And that gave me such comfort and peace. At the same time it made me realize what a blessing the medical care is in Australia. When I had a previous miscarriage while we were still living in Australia, it was a very sad time, however, I never had the same stress regarding the medical side of the miscarriage. However, in PNG it is so different. When things happen, even something like a miscarriage, there is always the added stress of: what will we do if…??? However, although we hope to never have to go through this kind of thing again, I can honestly say that the experience has truly and profoundly reminded me again of the supreme providence of God! And that is a blessing!
Later that evening Matt and Claire came to pick me up again from hospital and brought me to Andrew’s Mum and Ashlyn at Treetops. Matt and Claire were so good and kind to us, truly a blessing from God! We stayed on in Cairns for a few more days (on doctor’s advice) and returned home yesterday. While still in Cairns we spent another day in the hospital (A&E) as I developed a fever and was feeling unwell and was told that if anything liked that happened we were to return to check for a secondary infection. This time Andrew’s Mum was there so she just entertained Ashlyn the whole time (hours!!). However, after a long day and a battery of tests, we were thankful to find out that it looked as if I just had a viral infection (picked up when my immunity was low!) Thankfully, though, by the next morning I was feeling a lot better and we even managed to do some shopping and go to church on Sunday with the new “Free Reformed” group gathering in Cairns. Also, we had a BBQ on our last night with Matt and Claire Byl and children as well as Matt Plug. Yesterday morning Mum and Ashlyn and I went off to the airport where we first spent a bit of time together, before I went through customs and Mum headed over to the domestic terminal. All our flights were on time and everything once again went so smoothly!
While we were in Cairns, Andrew and Kirilee and Shiana were up in Ukarumpa for our annual Reformed Ministries conference. Although it was hard for him being there with all the “complete” families, and me so far away, at the same time it meant that he did not have to do any cooking, etc, or get the girls ready for school on his own. So God had that all worked out too!
Sorry this is so long…..felt like I had a lot of catching up to do!