Somtimes I just get such a feeling of being closed in here in Lae. I just feel like breaking free and walking up the road, to a beach, to a park, anywhere really, just to walk. Then I dream of putting Ashlyn in a stroller and taking her for a wonderful morning in a park, and then my mind starts to romanticize and I imagine gentle breezes and gorgeous sunshine (that is, just pleasant, not too hot - a beautiful Canadian spring day, when the trees are just budding again and the heavy coats and snowboots can be tossed into the cupboard for another season!) Then I imagine children swinging on swings and laughter and fun, or walks on the beach with clean, white Albany sand squishing through my toes, and the whales and dolphins frolicking in the water nearby (yeah right, like how often did that happen???) ....and by about this time I have to stop myself and say: "wake up, woman!" The thing is that when we lived in Australia or Canada and I had heaps of opportunity to walk, most of the time just didn't. And then there was plenty of opportunity to go to a park, but life was busy there too, and the weather wasn't always perfect!
But sometimes here, when that lifestyle just isn't a possibility it makes me dream a little, wish a little...and eventually just get over it and be thankful for my many blessings. I have a wonderful husband, three beautiful children, a great house, a reliable car, clothes, an abundance of food. I only have to drive briefly out of our compound to be reminded that many of these blessings are not common to most of the people around us.
And then there is the greatest blessing of all...and the great thing about this blessing is that it does not descriminate between culture, race, or gender...Salvation in Jesus Christ! And remembering your blessings tends to put a positive spin on everything.